The Blade Under the Willow

My reality has changed
And completely flipped around
As I lay in my bed
I do not hear a sound.

All I can do
Is think of you
While I lie in silence
And face the wall too.

The blade is still
HIdden inside my pillow
And tomorrow I will run
To my place beneath the willow.

The Angels will come get me
From beneath the tree
I will float to the sky with them
And I have become and Angel to be.

I look down and see
My dreams put to shame
And I soon realize
Their lives will never be the same.

I've made a mistake
There isn't much more I can take.

All I can see is tears and sorrow
What will happen to them tomorrow?

Do they realize I'm in a better place?
Can they last with seeing my dead face?

Are they scarred for life
Because I cut my wrist with that knife?

My poor little brother
Hasn't found out yet
And in school with torment and torture
Is where he currently sets.

He doesn't know
His 'issy' is gone
I hope for his sake
He doesn't make the same mistake.

Mom calls the school
Cause dad cannot speak
His little girl is gone
And he has become weak.

The funeral comes and goes
Crying fastens and slows.

My lifeless body is put into the ground
As I hear the sound
Of Brian crying
And inside, He is dying.

He misses his sister
He wants to see her face
So he knows every thing is okay
Because his eyes burn like mace.

I won't be coming back
And now I regret what I've done
I will visit Brian while he is dreaming
So he won't give up the sun.