Immortal continuance for suicide

I just tried to kill
Myself, in seconds
I literally healed
Myself .
I took the blade
And made a slash,
I did it as if time
Would flash.
But I only
Swallowed my
Spit,and day dreamed
About the
Broken pit.
I just tried
To leave earth's
Portal, but
The gods showed
Me that im
Immortal.
Some times
I don't, even breath
The demon stays
It never leaves .
I just tried to reach
My peace,
But the devil
Want let
My soul release.
So im stuck
Here on earth,
Until the time
Of the anti's birth.
The anti-Christ
Is coming soon,
He brings with
Him a thousand
Dooms.