I’m sad

Stuck in my own personal prison cell
Trying hard to break free of your grip
Your love is so beautifully toxic to me
I see you I feel weak I can’t stop it, fuck

In the darkness of my mind, resides me
My soul tired, stained, deflated, ruined
Bitter sweet memory’s, pieces float within
Running fast as I can but I’m not moving

You saved me from the wicked witch
I have never been as happy as I was, true
You turned on me, forsaken our vows true
What did I do to deserve this kind of hell?

I was on could 9 for so long it was Devine
Your lips so soft, kisses so damn sweet
Your body not perfect but it was for me
You are kind of perfect no one could

You hated your stretch marks I loved them
Every line told a story of the three children
They weren’t biologically mine wish it was
I loved them as if they were my own I do

You once said why do you love me?
You also said I deserved better than you
How do you know that I do? I want you
You drive me fucking wild no one comes close

What about what I wanted? I and need?
I am no saint either but you called it quits
It’s ok though because I love you I do
Nothing comes close to you that is true

I fought so hard more than anyone knows
I’ve died more than once You never knew
I’m a fool I don’t know how to switch it off
Don’t even know if I would if I could do it

I really cherished our time together
You will never know how much love I have
My heart was robed my soul cheated on
What you did has already been forgiven

Your intrigued, what’s happened to me
You read my song that I wrote for you
I’ve never stoped loving you that’s true
I fell for you on day one I haven’t stoped

It might sound strange to you, I miss you
We have both been through so much
My love for you had been tried and tested
I would give all to be with you again, true

It comes down to could you even face me?
Could you trust yourself not to do it again?
Would you let me love you like I told you?
Could you let go the shame and love me?

Actually don’t question it just give us a go
at least a 2nd try we deserve that at least
I truly could not give a flying fuck what anyone thinks truly fuck everyone
I’m even willing to learn how to fight with you I guess if that’s what it takes
I’m actually willing to do anything try anything that’s how much I need you.