Understand

You will never understand
That the love you have for me, I just don't feel the same  
That drive and obsession that you have for me  
Is the total opposite of what I see  
You may want me!  
But I need me!  
You cant have me!  
Again I need me!  
I cant love you  
The way you want me too  
I cant be that person who you need me to be  
Cause I'm still trying figure out who is me  
You always ask the question WHY?  
but don't never take the time to think of my reasons as reasons WHY?  
So quick to tell me to Fix the problem  
I am, but you want see  
That the problem is not you, it is Me  
So I seek  
On what makes me happy  
What makes me sad  
All I know is that I cant move forward with you  
And it's my bad  
See I tried telling you numerous of times  
But you ignored me when I was talking everytime  
You took that and said I was nagging and bitching  
But is it really my fault  
You lack of listening  
So you Google ways on how to come up with a solution  
Still not understanding  
That you causing confusion  
You causing pain and hurt upon yourself  
Cause you expecting me to be on board with you  
And stop feeling how I'm feeling  
Cause you want this relationship  
But you ain't willing  
To ditch out the unconditional love  
That I'm asking from you  
That friendship I been begging  
That I needed from you  
See I was down to put my crap to the side  
But you held on  
THATS YO FUCKING PRIDE!!!  
When will you understand  
That we aren't compatible together  
When we spoke about each other it wasn't translatable towards each other  
Let's be Adults about this whole thing  
I feel it's for the best to go are separate ways  
I'm not asking nothing from you  
But respect my wishes  
You may not like my decision  
But at least you'll know  
I kept it real with you on how I felt  
This ending is not the end of me  
So don't you go bashing me  
On what I thought what's best for me  
Don't make it hard then its already is  
Stop being trouble an except what it is  
Just two people who waisted each other time  
I just finally came to my sense  
To stop the clock  
Giving myself back on what's mine  
Not knowing what I had to do was just Stop!  
And put myself first  
But will you try to understand that I don't wanna hurt you  
Understand what I'm saying put yourself in my shoes  
If the rabbit had the gun  
What will do?  
What will choose?  
Your happiness or they happiness  
Even if that means sacrificing  
Losing the person who you care about just so they Can live they own life  
The price is right  
We In a christ  
To end this fight  
But not tonight  
Will these wounds heal  
It takes time but only time can tell  
But understand that at one point of time I loved you  
We just faded away like the tide of waves that was once blue  
And I am so sorry that I hurt you  
But try to understand I'm no longer in-love with you  
You deserve whatever life throws at you  
And ima stumble over things and regret in my life  
But at least I know one thing if i ever get a chance at love again ima get it right  
Understanding and comprehending  
Is just the beginning  
I am who I am  
Just except that  
Im trying to save you from heartaches  
Do you understand that !