happy family stories

Happy family stories  
are linear narratives  
handed down to us  
by keepers of myth  
(for susceptible kids).  

I, after years
of forced observation,
pushed face to face  
to stare in wonder at my failings  
and destructions, see  
the long-form cycle  
(always obscuring the other hemisphere)  
that I am.  
 
I was built to walk alone  
to keep walking  
until my death.  
Every turn and every failure  
I plunge deeper  
sculpt an image  
to bring to the surface  
(it's hard to do),  
and if I found true  
peace with another  
(I have, once -  
I know how I would write  
home),  
I would stop,  
plant a garden,  
smile under the sun,  
embrace a new life,  
forget the stretches of human unknown  
that I visited  
that spoke to me -  
desperate uncovered narratives -
in hopes of bringing their language  
of lost worlds  
(nobody up here needs,  
immersed in fun  
in rating craft beers  
in what others write)  
into the light.