diary of a dying man day 2

my mind has awaken from a deepen dream
she was running away from me,
I was yelling and she screamed
This love we shared flew away
One mid summers’ night
I found her with her other lover
And it had burned my heart, it wasn’t right
I began to hear the whispers
That became their cries
“kill her” was the only words I heard
How do I fight what I can’t control?
She yelled it was the fame that is to blame
Well the fame from my name, brought her shame
I felt so cold in my heart
While it laid apart
I couldn’t breathe or be me
I couldn’t see who I really was
Was I blinded by the lights?
This pain I couldn’t hold in
I felt lost and alone
Even the home in my soul was gone
This dream of murder that I committed
Couldn’t be real could it?
No but even so she still deserves the pain she felt
When the blade went across her skin
She sinned the worst sin you could commit
Now I lie in my bed as the murder replayed in my head
Our love was once pure and true
Until she hit me with the blues
Then I made sure her scars were stained across her heart
Ah lord forgive me now
As the darkness surrounds
I am a child made from clay
Although my flesh will decay
I pray my soul sails away
As the stars and light leave my eyes
The ember that burnt holes
As she tells me lies
These are my final days
But nobody has come today
My wife she loved me and I loved her
But you saw the pain I endured
She thought I would just sit here
With my jaw to the floor
I did my deed and I took her life
Blood ran down her face
My soul had become misplaced
But I did what I was longing to do
I knew in time, I would see her one mid summers’ night
The feeling and urge I couldn’t fight
So as I write this take my life, and take it soon
I can’t bare to live under the moon
As I wait my turn with death
I can still hear the beating of her heart.