i don't know anymore

Some days I swear you're my husband
Other days when you don't have you snuff
 I think you're a devil straight from the pit
Sent to turn my world upside down and sideways
Love is the one thing I can't walk away
Love comes straight to the heart no warning
You walk in and time slows down
I feel love again
We have big conversations
We talk about a lot of things
I keep a lot in from saying to you
When u don't have your snuff
As you voice your opinions loudly at times
I cry because i know it's only because your out of snuff
 and I forget a lot and you have to tell me over and over again
Just know your words hurt me
Like when you compare me to your ex wife
I know I'm not perfect but I'm trying my best.
It really hurts when you make threats to leave
If you wanna leave just leave and don't come back
Im sorry I'm not the perfect wife but I'm trying to be