closet romantic

I have wept for years and years.
Seen many things I didn't want to.
My wants ended up my greatest fears.
And then, I myself became that greatest fear too.
I don't want to end up alone and scared
I don't want to be that girl that cries every night.
I want to be tied down, not shared.
I want to be the wife, not the lady of the night.
I want to feel something other then pain.
Maybe love? Passionate sex and more.
Not be played like a game.
And, my heart, be extremely sore.
I want love, is it in my cards?
I want kids, to call me mom.
And a man that can play his part.
Maybe it won't take so long.