blue moon ahedonia

yesterday was faster than i was.
 
for all my plans  
ended up leaving the curtains closed
 
oh gods
please don't let me be heavy.
 
please don't





 
uncannily like a dinner plate, on the verge of shattering
 
some pastoral chinese scene split down a stressed vein
man and his house  
and tree
and boat
wrenched apart
 
they say it's more beautiful broken
mortared with silver
 
i don't know, i never saw
but maybe it gave me a headache
anyway
 




 
i regret
i went to sleep at a reasonable time
 
pray for me