Pushed away

I saw you last night
And left you today
But only because you pushed me away
So what can I say
That might make you let me stay
To my own dismay
You hurt me that day
In your own twisted evil way
without checking if I was okay

Foolishly I looked into the sky to pray
Wishing to be struck down and lifted away
I can't eat, sleep or think
Left lost and I've begun to decay
And I'd like to say
That it's you who makes me feel this way

But i know that deep down that it's always me
We both know that I'm not entirely crazy
But at times we seem to follow closely
Into deeper depths on insanity

I don't say this to scare you
But sometimes I just don't know what to do
Abandonment is my biggest issue
I've become weak and transparent
I relied on your confidence
and common sense

Let me make things right
Please won't you hear my plight
I promise this time I won't leave your sight
Let me come back to you tonight

By E.G. Edifier