Yep lost in love

Waited years in vain, slain soul withers away
Memories locked for safe keeping I may never reopen
The leftover trash rattles ever fibre of my being
What sort of man was I then? What sort of man am I now?

You twisted lies with truth you had me fooled til the end
What I lost I want back I want this heart ache to stop
If you ever read this you would say what a desperate idiot
I believe what we had was so true do you even have a fucking clue

My head is in a mess your love struck me so hard
In the end I almost died the stress and divorce almost did me in
Yes I came close to the never ending abyss
I still want you that how much my head is fucked up

You broke the law you took another man how do you think that made me feel?
I’m in a constant state of what ifs and maybes
When all is said and done you still took him over me
Where is he now? He went back to his wife and your shame kept us getting back together

You burnt the rule book you crushed myself esteem
What did I do wrong? It was nothing to do with you it was all me she said
You where the perfect husband I could not of asked for better!
You said our sex was always on fire? I am confused

If I was so good and you could not ask for better then why is my question?
He was my first boyfriend I just have a weak spot for him
You said that he messaged you over Facebook
And ironically it was Facebook were you said we were done

I lost my mind lost my world lost everything I lost you
You shut me out you shut me down it was no joke
How can be there be a God I did not sin but I was punished
Yes I’m pissed I don’t have you anymore fuck it I love you.