Rehuman

I want to have it
The good feeling I almost knew
And experience it longer than a second
As soon as I sense it, it escapes me
Why does it slip so easily from me?
I want to know what happy songs mean
I can't remember what it's like to connect
To the people around me
I want to smile and laugh and mean it
But all I can do is mimic for the time being
Is there more than sad tears waiting for me?
Could things really get better?
Jumping over my walls
I wonder what would happen after
Maybe people would just laugh at me
But maybe, just maybe, they'd laugh with me
Making a friend or two
Or maybe none at all
And that would be ok, too
Fear will no longer have a hold on me
It's time I took control back over my own life
I'm uncertain if I'll fly
But I have my feathers and I'm ready to try