My love I'm sorry  to be  unwell

I remember way to much, my darling ill forget it for you.

Take my lessons in the bliss of time, find the reason left behind.

I remember way to much, my darling ill rock you to sleep.

Fallen into your dreams, your life is my dream.

Fallen reality, stars in my seams.

You are my world for the world to see, my baby bear.

I remember way to much, my darling I'm trying to give that shit up.

Took me in a whirlwind of sadness, trying to help gods atlas.

Suicide on my brain, wish I could wash it all away.

From the sights of my peers, from the mind of my family's fears.

Wish I could wash it away, all the broken memories.

From people cutting there self, popping pills to help.

From nooses to hand gestures, crying for a reason.

My soul fucking bleeding, lost her in a way I could never save.

Now my brother, now my mother, now my sister, now my father.

You drown in the same way, I watched her face turn away.

Darkness for all days, I tried to stand for you all.

Its taken me by toll, taken all I have.

I building and crying , trying to desifer what you meant.

Please not that way, don't leave me here just stay.

I'm falling in the sadness, I'm loosing all the happiness.

I remember way to much, my darling I'm forgetting it for you.

Can't cry at bus stops or hope for change that won't come.

Can my mind be delivered from the hell it stays, can I make you happy.

Can we run from this place, will you see no sorrow.

Will you see no pain, can't promise you happiness raining all day.

I'll try my best and if I don't succeed, I'll try again for you and the world to see.

Defeat all these demons, the sad delusions.

Your my world, my happiness and more.

They won't take you in waves of testing my strength and my growth.

Here we will stay, away from suicidal dazed.

Here we will stay, in our nest we have made.

My beautiful baby bird, you will fly and soar.

You'll never hear the words of how I wish to go.

You'll never see me cry and wonder why.

You'll never see me hurt myself, I'm to afraid to try.

See way to much but not enough of them sun rise eyes.

Love me forever, my boy, I will treasure.

Lets leave this world behind, I remember way to much.

My darling for you, I'm leaving it all behind.

Ptsd not mine, not my crime, not my time.

Not yours to see, not yours to learn, mummy healthy, loving, adventure bound.

The real woman I am before this world span my head around.

I am your mother and that's all I am.

My books my legacy, left behind.

My songs my soul, left singing in forgotten time.

My words like sand falling throughout your hands.

The whole world in our hands, you are so grand.

I remember way to much but my favourite is when you got placed in my arms.

Finally you are here, hello my treasure forever, hello, one look to me and your eyes appeared.

Glistening so sweet, so gentle, so pure.

An angel sent for me I'm sure, I love you my boy more than you will ever know.