When your not around

When your not around,

Deafening  sound  of cold hard truth,




   

Castrate my manhood, 

Your brash feminism,

Bordering on maniacal  contempt, 

Not a slut nor a shrinking  violet,

A ceaseless , love starved, coke bottled  ,

Dream girl ,


Infatuation, 

Im too old ,

Scarred and cynical,

For I can't  see the visibility, 

Of your vanity,  .

As my mirrors are smoken,

Promising  me a orchard, 

Bitten by a dog of war,

Celebrated by a chorus of crackled chaos,


You will never  be,

Figment  of my dawdling,

Devotion, 

A poisoned  ocean,

Stupidly I drank at your peak,

Wishing i could  hear your voice,

Swallow your mistruth,

Groomed buffoon,

Your tainted lies ,

The  wish I wantonly  fantasize about,