To Whoever Finds This...

Please don’t come looking for me
When I suddenly disappear
Just do like everyone else does and
Act like I was never here

This is my letter to you
Please don’t be sad 
I had to get away from myself
And it’s crazy because she’s actually glad

She’s glad that I finally did it
It’s one less thing she’ll have to do
And even though I went away for a while
Just know it had nothing to do with you

I guess it was my time
At least that’s what she said
I gave her my love and my body 
Bu she gave me hate instead

Please tell my family that I’m sorry 
But I just couldn’t stay 
That in order for me to be happy that
This was the only way

Tell my niece that I love her
That I’ll come see her in her dreams
And make sure you tell her
That life isn’t what it seems

Tell her that boys just want one thing 
And that’s what’s down below 
Tell her to save herself and if she feels that
The time isn’t right please don’t let IT go

Tell her to pursue her dreams
And that love will come her way
That it may not come when she wants it 
But she’ll find it one day

Tell my sister Taytay to go after her dreams
And make our parents proud
That it’s not that easy to do
But she’ll find a way somehow 

Tell my brother Alex that I believe in him
Even if he don’t think I do
That I love him so much and his football dream
Is what I want him to pursue

Tell my dad I said thanks
For just being in my life
For being on my side
Even the times when I wasn’t right

Tell him he did everything that he could as a dad
That I’m so happy he was mine 
It was nothing he could do to stop me 
That this was just my time

Please tell my mom that
I love her, oh so much
That if i could i would come lay with her again
Just to feel another warm, safe touch

Tell her I’m so so sorry 
That I couldn’t say goodbye 
That she was a good mother to me 
I think that was something I had to clarify

Tell the rest of my family 
That they’ll be in my heart
That we’ll always be together 
Even if we’re miles apart

Tell them that this was just my time
At least that’s what she said
So I picked up the gun and placed the bullet inside
And I took one to the head 

Oh please don’t come looking for me 
When I suddenly disappear 
Just do like everyone else does and forget me 
Because now I’m not here