Choices

You ever think about  
the things  
you allow  
when your lonely
and  what you’ve  
been wanting  
and  
if the things  
you were hoping for  
was nothing more than an illusion in your mind of what had already been happening
that  those same choices that you’re afraid of
had already played out
Now  you’ve  just made yourself fit in this silly ass SPECTRUM
of NORMAL
and what if just maybe  
what you
now allow
was the choice you were always  
supposed to be choosing  
but you just weren’t ready for  
Do you ever think  
how  
that one thing you  
let yourself think  
was so fucked up  
“how could you even think that?”  
you ever just think
how  that if you would have  
let that one thought “Play”  
 how if you would have just stayed out your own way  
then maybe  
“You would have already  
choose  this way”!