delussional state

my heart aches and I don't know why
my soul full of hate and so ar the tears I refuse to cry
I'm not depressed, ijust see the tuth
that the worlds to fucked up so what is the use?
is that a change I see on the horizone
or is it just the screams of treason arising
what defins good and what defins bad
how do I define the loneliness I feel in my head
is there something wrong with me
or is it just society
that deprives me of any human traits
and drives me to this pityfull state
a state close to non-existance
a state only achieved by abuseing the fiction
is it wrong to pretend everythings allright
cuz when I look outside I see the peoples fright
it scares me
and it scars me to see the worlds up comeing fate
so please forgive me for loseing myself in my delusional state