Addiction

An addiction.
A condition of pain and suffering
I have always failed to understand
Pain
And suffering
two adjectives that seem to go hand in hand..
To describe this disease.
A sickness I'm experiencing first hand
A life choice
I never wanted
Asked for
Or planned..

Everyday screaming for help
Bellowing from the depths of my lungs for someone to hear me..
But no sound reverberates outside of my body..
I'm crying within
I don't know which way to go
What path to take
Or where to begin..

Corroding..
Forced to stand and watch
This disease
Killing
the love of my life
I'm helpless..
Powerless
My hands are tied
And as much as I want to run away and hide
I can't..

I'll be here to the end
To fight for the life
Of my lover
Wife
And best friend x