Looking to my past

I see myself in the mirror
Seeing my mistakes 
Blaming myself 
Cursing myself 

I came closer to the mirror 
I see myself up close 
Lifeless pupils casted 
Scratches and bruises displayed in my porcelain skin 
I'm ugly, I'm wicked. 

There is nothing in this world, but 
me, and this mirror 
Darkness and silent surround me. 

No one can reach me 
I stared at myself 
Screams from the past 
Regrets from the past 
Memories surfaced 

I cried and cursed. 
Why is it so hard to live? 
Those people with satisfied smiles upon their face 
Were they happy? 
Were they able to die happily? 
Were there regrets left behind? 

I want to know... 
I can't see myself being happy in my past 

The world grew darker. 
The mirror slowly cracks 
My figure slowly getting destroyed 
I slowly indulge by the darkness 

The warm feeling lingered my body 
That was how I reborn, to spread darkness to all.