the deal

 
I ache with it
burn with it
get up carrying it

the weight of it drags me down
the pain brings me to my knees
teaches me who's master
I think some days I am
until I'm left begging the hurt to stop

it is relentless...
it hunts me this pain

I make deals with the devil
to end the pain for a moment
he keeps his end of the bargain

then I plead with the gods;
to release me from mine

the hurt is coldblooded it has no mercy
it doesn't care if I scream
it wills that I do...
sweet melody are the screams of the damned

my tormentor invisible
as elusive as smoke
I can't wrap my hands around it and kill it
I have no choice but to feed it
creating a bigger monster

today I bargained with the devil
tomorrow I pray I don't have to pay the debt

but I will...