Reality said

Now a days ppl think I don’t care but in reality I care about a lot, I just can’t concentrate on that shit or I may break again. So in my life I’ve learned to wear masks on my face and armor around my heart to keep it from hurting or bleeding like the Red Sea. I don’t allow myself to think about the things I gotta deal with on a daily (like I really don’t want to be living this way but it will get better- but in real life I’m screaming when the fuck does that happen. Cause I been patiently waiting and humbling myself and this shit ain’t doing not a damn thing or how I wonder- what’s wrong with me? why is it that the only consistent relationship, I have is with a cat and- I don’t even like cats or how I don’t want to be alone but I will not let myself have someone but it could be the fact I never let anyone know my soft side but again reality tells the true story and says (you tried that once and look at the shit that happened) last thing reality said before I could put my mask and armor on is “ you already know that.  So boiled down and simmered I’m just damaged, just broke
Damn Amy was right “LOVE” is a losing game