here: where sluts are made

you laid with your
cheap 'Daniels bottle
and the sleepy look
in the eyes
a beating heart away
from fear

i keep my eyes on the screen
oh a sponge and a pineapple will not eat me
alive
and can you see the way
i love you
in the way i shake the way i am terrified

of you
please dont do this
blackmail is not the answer
could you not wait for me
but no
you force lips where lips would not be
and force your gun up and shoot it at my inner thigh
at my second lips

i didnt want a kiss that broke
eyes on the screen
oh a sponge and a pineapple will not break me
away
and can you not see the way i loved you
yet now i know to be terrified

what good is it now
my faith
my innocence
wiped like the blackboard
when i was told to stand
in second year
and write hospital
in my lovely calligraphy
Nanny taught me young

yet whats all that matter now
ill never give it away when im wed
its gone
so go on
sweet people
take a piece
lovers women brothers friends bend the trends
whats it matter now
tainted
uncompensated
with the breaking of a hymen
comes the breaking of my humanity
ive never known what to be since

all i know is
a sponge and a pineapple will never eat me alive
a sponge and a pineapple will never break me away
a sponge and a pineapple will never remove
the way it felt
having something stronger than me
take everything i ever had to give