without you

without you the sun is dim
I sit in a dark room crying
loud wishing you were here I
never thought I was ever going
to find someone like that
face the fact of the noise
you used me you made me feel dirty
unconforting i hated this
because i gave my soul to you i opened
myself now i wash the filth away
scared you'll come back i hate this
so much tell me why i'm crazy
without you i hated everything that
you did to me the face of the universe
was so happy to me then you
came in held me down hurt my insides
made me feel scared to open myself
up to you i once knew love now i found you
my bodies bleeding my heart is shattered and
and now i can see that i can't live without you
the abuse was terrible,the drinking was crazy,
you were my dad and you made me feel dirty like
a slut you hurt me and raped me now tell me
pappa why can't i live without you?