Big Brother

Big brother are you resting in peace?
I hate when someone says your death was meant to be.
Fuck peace I want you here with me.
Fuck the mourners that cried , posted and moved on.
No relief for me, I see no peace....I need my big brother here with me.
Fuck y’all telling me to let the tears go, I still don’t understand how y’all can let my brothers suspicious death go.
Leave me alone and let me be.
Please understand I’m not mourning I’m empty without my brother beside me.
No speech no eulogy nothing will ever comfort me.
Not until I’m next to my brother again
Not until the loneliest the emptiness without him is filled...