Memories of a Past Rebirthing

My eyes they bleed blackened tears
Of vengeful sorrow anew
Hate and love clashing again
This heart I will not let split

A Hell I had overcome
A sorrow I had vanquished
Restores itself once again
As a past once dead relives

The one I know more than all
Is the one who stays with me
Forever until death dost
Tear our limp bodies apart

For our love is eternal
Never to falter or die
Even in our death we shall
Always love one another

And yet even with this sort
Of such strong bond held strongly
These memories of my past
Re-invade after this sight

To see the first you're heart
Ever believed it wanted
In a way of which your soul
Had wished for retribution

The many years of depression
That she bestowed onto me
With her dark games and signals
Always mixed to her interest

All of these done out of loss
Of what to do on her part
So to this day I don't blame
Her for anything at all

Yet still pieces of me wish
To get a sort of payment
For those years of hellish pain
And I was inches from it

And from that occurrence then
A lust lost comes once again
Those parts of me demand now
That I get the payment soon

They scream to me to see what
A lust once lost had lusted
Just that once to let it go
A debt paid so I may live

Without ever having this
Pained memories of a past
And a debt never paid from
Many years of this sorrow

Luckily to my heart and
My soul as well that my one
True love understands all this
And is remaining with me

Yet now I do not know what
I am to do with all this
Parts of me want payment now
Others know she's not to blame

What am I to do with this?
How am I supposed to stay
A loyal lover when my
Soul is being torn with lust
Greed, wrath, and all of this Hell

Owned by Dustin Smith: Bastardofbodom666