Wandering

i’ve been wandering through ruins all night searching for any evidence on if you still love me. the second time i got lost was the hardest, kept repeating to myself that this is what you wanted. i was left alone in the dark. i still hear your voice, except it’s more faint and my feet bleed when i follow the echoes it casts. we both promised that this would… last winter when you joked about driving us into the lake i laughed but i wish you did instead of hesitating nervously. yes, i would’ve been mad but only for a moment, see an unknown eternity is what we’re chasing. and with anyone else you’d never find such magic, it’d just be complacent. my cheeks stiffen from the tears as i stagger through what was once a civilization. i don’t want our love to disappear, i just don’t know how to save it.