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I Am Not
I am not my disease
I am not the thoughts of death
that run through my head
I am not the stains of darkness
that have weaved into my thoughts
I am not my disease
I am not my disease
I am not the healing cuts hidden under my sleeve
the words of anger I let loose in my heat
I am not the tears that come
when I make myself believe
that I am not worth your love
I am not my disease
I am not the fear of abandonment
I refuse to admit
the medication I will never take again
I am not the memories I try to forget
the walls I build to keep you out of my head
I am not my disease
I am not my disease
not my disease
my disease
disease-
My disease will not destroy me
I fight my battles hidden from the world to see
the way it chains and shackles me
the things it forces me to believe
I was young, I was made
a girl alone and afraid
I was told to be ashamed
of the dreams I yearned for,
the dreams I thought they’d take away
I had to learn to be brave
I must be brave
I am not my disease
I am not these lies
woven to keep me sane,
keep me here
to keep me alive
I am not a ghost
A shadow of their harmful words
I am not their mindless slave
the child that they tried so hard
to lock away
I am not my disease
I am not the thoughts of death
that run through my head
I am not the stains of darkness
that have weaved into my thoughts
I am not my disease
I am not my disease
I am not the healing cuts hidden under my sleeve
the words of anger I let loose in my heat
I am not the tears that come
when I make myself believe
that I am not worth your love
I am not my disease
I am not the fear of abandonment
I refuse to admit
the medication I will never take again
I am not the memories I try to forget
the walls I build to keep you out of my head
I am not my disease
I am not my disease
not my disease
my disease
disease-
My disease will not destroy me
I fight my battles hidden from the world to see
the way it chains and shackles me
the things it forces me to believe
I was young, I was made
a girl alone and afraid
I was told to be ashamed
of the dreams I yearned for,
the dreams I thought they’d take away
I had to learn to be brave
I must be brave
I am not my disease
I am not these lies
woven to keep me sane,
keep me here
to keep me alive
I am not a ghost
A shadow of their harmful words
I am not their mindless slave
the child that they tried so hard
to lock away
I am not my disease
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