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I Am Not

I am not my disease    
I am not the thoughts of death  
that run through my head    
I am not the stains of darkness    
that have weaved into my thoughts    
I am not my disease    
I am not my disease    
   
I am not the healing cuts hidden under my sleeve    
the words of anger I let loose in my heat    
I am not the tears that come
when I make myself believe    
that I am not worth your love    
   
I am not my disease    
   
I am not the fear of abandonment  
I refuse to admit    
the medication I will never take again    
I am not the memories I try to forget    
the walls I build to keep you out of my head    
   
I am not my disease    
I am not my disease    
not my disease    
my disease    
disease-    
   
My disease will not destroy me    
I fight my battles hidden from the world to see    
the way it chains and shackles me    
the things it forces me to believe    
   
I was young, I was made    
a girl alone and afraid    
I was told to be ashamed    
of the dreams I yearned for,    
the dreams I thought they’d take away    
I had to learn to be brave    
I must be brave    
   
I am not my disease    
I am not these lies    
woven to keep me sane,  
keep me here    
to keep me alive    
   
I am not a ghost    
A shadow of their harmful words    
I am not their mindless slave    
the child that they tried so hard    
to lock away    
   
I am not my disease
Written by fieryangelsouljia (M6rr6g6n)
Published | Edited 8th Dec 2018
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