Escaped death part 3

Learning to fly with broken wings
Missing the life I had and silly things
Win or lose
My decisions and fate will choose

I have encountered a set back
To a goal to get my life back on track
From work to the doctors and now home
Only to sit because I no longer can roam

A blood test tommorow may the testing begin
For a cure and a diagnoses to win
Time is no longer on my side
Only fear and concern now reside

My tenure at my job does not matter
As I climb this dangerous latter
The symptoms are taking a toll
Damaging the remaining of my mind and soul

If I thought the past was was filled with misery
Then this suffering will break new grounds and personal history
I am more thankful for everything
Not knowing what the future will bring

Recovery is now a physical examination
Of how everything is connected and has a relation
I have realized what it is to live
To share, care, love and give