Letting you get away with so much

I guess I threw myself away letting you get away with so much.
I knew you wasn't good but I fell in love.
I knew you'd destroy me.
Yet I fell in love, with what could be.
I guess I threw myself away letting you get away with so much.
I broke my walls down, let this man touch of that where im not proud.
Alot been taken over the years.
Sexual exploitation, abuse I didn't see.
Waking up I find my keep, lock up my virginity for mine.
Mine only to weep.
Mine only to weep.
I guess I threw myself away letting you get away with so much.
See I gave you me, my secrets, my pain,my love.
They all become a weapon in your hand for fun.
Calling me dirty.
When I already felt that as a child, they took my worth.
I battled for years within that curse.
To let myself free, to enjoy sex.
Yet you curse me back dammed.
Dirty.
Like how I felt as a child.
I pray to the Lord and I say forgive their mistakes.
I pray to Lord and I say give me faith to see this through.
Could ever the truth be stumbled upon like the wild.
Never for we are boxed, caged, lost.
I guess I threw myself away letting you get away with so much.
Triggering me into your playful box.
Triggering me with your games.
You don't know this girl..
Not one person in the world knows this girl...
I have kept my truth under lock.
One day I will write my story, my truth.. It won't be locked.
I will free myself from the pain because
I guess I just threw myself away letting you get away with so much.