Reflections..

Standing in a crowded place lost examining fate.Rain washes off exhausting sins. Where do ends start ,or begin? Nothing more pure than the future filling my eyes as far as one can see, you left me to drown ,in salt gasping sea. Everything is fine ,how about you ? Holding my head under water blue a k2 boo! Fate bosses me along forward through this mess. Realitys breast ,holding me at best. Is there such a thing as feel ? ,you are all fake fruit ,gnats ,slime peel. I bite me tongue ,blind my eyes , every thing i was taught ,all lies . Brand my virgin ass with a rainbow ,you know gay pride ?  I love you all ,i hate my self . I watch you fall , rose pedal white pelt. Watching me go under ,laughing at the thought. You a bug in a corner smashed by my pointed cowboy boots store bought. Look in a mirror ask who you really are ? Lieing to one self, you are a  nothing ,wont make you a star. If you are a piece of shit eyes turn memory scars. At least with screams i know my self,the depths tested a far .Starlit eyes in front of me, a diamond sparkle calidascope . Leave them all behind to  truly find ones hope.