Birth of Gemyni

I move forward and backwards at the same time.
Frantically running away from my past,
But avoiding my destructive future.

My future was decided 10 years ago.
The first of many stupid decisions I've made.
Five years ago my life change again.

Deciding to be the best father i could be,
that was the first decision I felt good about.
It made my life have purpose again

Though you made life have meaning again,
Darkness slowly followed in my wake.
I felt it creeping up waiting patiently.

Three years ago darkness caught up with me,
My past consumed me til I became unstable.
In that darkness I found my Kaos.