Faded impressions

You were my thunder storm
A snow in the night
A raven to pick out the evil in me
Now all I see is the darkest side of me
I let you go.
My eternal curse and I see it now
The names on my mind and a scar has formed
This can’t fade
The taste won’t fade
I want you, and still need you
But I’d die for your happiness
I told you that right
Nows the time when I’m suppose to drink
Pound my fist against the wall
And scream for another shot
So I’ll grab the bottle
A broken heart can’t ever be whole again
But this bottle in hand, I think I might be fine
So now it’s killing time and the targets in sight
So I take another shot, one, two, three, eight, eleven
One pill, two pill, three pill, nine
Just another blow ad I’ll be “fine”
This isn’t enough, I feel the pain
The falls free fall
I look to the mirror and see a faded impression and smash it
I’d rather see nothing then see what I’ve become
To let you see what I am? You wouldn’t give a damn.
So I’ll take another shot, one, two, three, four
And one pill, two.. Three.. Four..
No more..