Guarded GoodZ

They say that it's okay to talk to about your feelings to someone right  
But I'd rather keep them neatly bottled up in my conscience.    
I'd rather let my pen be the therapist that guides me to spew every thought out on paper.    
I'd rather live in fantasy because reality gets to real and I need to find the sweetest escape.    
I'd rather let my heart collect dust around it before I let just anyone try come in and claim it.  
   
In my mind I'm a perfectionist and I have no flaws, so I portray to the world.    
But deep down I have a very pessimistic view on life.    
I never let my guard down, too afraid that people will hurt me.    
I live in regret everyday, but I'm strong enough to know that I too make mistakes and I have to live with them.      
I wallow in my own sorrow not asking for the comfort from those around even though in the process it's killing me on the inside.    
I'm an introvert, so yes I'd rather be by my lonely    
That way I won't have snakes trying to place their tainted venom in my life.    
     
I'm a work in progress, an unfinished painting on a canvas.    
Waiting for the right brush to stroke its bristles filled with color onto my seemingly lifeless existence.    
I'm a puzzle that's almost done having its  little tiny pieces put back together again.    
I know that I will have to trust somebody for you can't live in this world alone.    
But, I'm in a world where it seems that having a pure heart gets you no where,    
Where evil is trying to triumph over good.    
     
I just want a peace of mind is that too much to ask for    
Where I can be trapped in my own world, not having to worry about a thing.    
I just want to find true love and not having to worry about not being enough for that person    
And that person just being satisfied with me just being me and no one else.    
I just want to accomplish everything in this world and make the ones that matter proud of me.    
I just want to live a perfect life with my mind freed of negativity, is that to much to ask for.