the words behind my eyes

not fucking good enough
that's all i can think whenever i look in a mirror
eyes staring back at me
they're my own
and they're so damn mean
all they can say over and over
like a broken fucking record
im
not
good
enough


my minds so mean
so goddamn cruel to my heart
i know deep down i am enough
and i am loved
and i can push through
but the words behind my eyes
they try and convince me otherwise

i hate my mind
i know damn well that i am loved by this person
but all i can think is
"he doesn't care"
and i hate it
i know he does
he wouldn't stay if he didnt
but the words behind my eyes
they always wanna tell me lies

i need to stop
letting the words get to me
if i know they are not true why do i listen
im good enough
i'm smart enough
i'm kind enough
and i'm loved enough
but for some reason
my eyes
they always lie
always

the words behind my eyes
they make me think otherwise
with their believable lies.