Only a Dream

I feel you slowly creep up from behind, breathing soft and warmly from my neck to my spine trying so religiously to blow my mind. You make me wonder what it is to truly be in love, because you; can’t be in love when the one you love doesn't love himself as he says he does you.
It’s killing me softly to have to continue to pull away, when deep in my heart I so yearn to stay. Stay by your side on this unpredictable ride, as you go faster and faster on the road of genocide.
The game is thick; but the game is great for those who are strong enough to go straight.
Your masculinity so great, your sensitivity so divine; the sweet things you say to me just stay on my mind. But as I dream of you and me, I am reminded of the odds that keep me from giving myself to you completely, totally, unconditionally.
I pray each day I have not forgotten how to love, how to be loved, how to feel comfortable with the word "love". It's been so long and I want it so bad; but how could I be missing something that I've never had.  
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