You was a rainbow playing for the storm

I don't know how to feel and Im afraid i am becoming numb.

Numb to the lies, numb to the disguise.

Me and my baby was fine, how dare you try to twist my mind.

I don't know how to feel because i love, I care, I believe what's not there.

How could I be crazy and weird if I'm now shivering and scared.

You've made it worse, you made me feel like I could rely on you, love you, have a hope for us.

Yet you attack and acuse, I'm sick of the fuss.

I love my baby more than anything, your ruining our calm home.

Its like you dig for gold, you attack then say you have bought me a present, you twist me to feel bad for the false love you shower me with.

I want real, freedom, nature, calmness..

Please don't let me explain myself again, please just let me do things my way.

I'm not ready for you to come in my life hands on, so stop grabbing my hips in that controlling way.

I feel numb, numb to the pain.

What am I, you won't leave.

Your a painful tease, you offer me a breathe and take it in the next step..

I love you I do but not when I'm flinching at little noises because of you.

You shout at me and blow then grab me down below.

How could I have loved a love like this, you take something from me even I can't bear to witness.

Its hard to let go but I must do before I become as cold as snow.