Anxiety

I want more, not just Little Mermaid more,
But more to the point where I am stuffed;  
So full of images of people, places and things
That not even the 'big and tall' stores will have my size.
 
I can't just sit here, watching and waiting,
Seeing people going there and doing that.
Meanwhile, 'm stuck and soon
Nothing will be left to be seen or done.
 
I want to go on adventures;  
Take the road never travelled on;
Discover things that no one knew existed,
Accomplish a childhood dream I never knew I had.
 
But right now, I can't move;
These goals and dreams are so far away;
Not even a telescope will track them down.
 
I am being pulled in four different directions,
Yet not moving;
I am deep in a shallow pond.
 
I have all these passions;
Yet there is no life to them,
I want to ignite a light,
But there is no power to be found.
 
I want to shout at the top of a mountain;
Releasing everything I've been holding in;
I want to release you:
This insurmountable pain I've been holding onto,
This weight that consumes me.
 
I need to be done with you;
I know my place of belonging is out there;
I'm tearing down these walls;  
For I know there's more to be explored.