theories of a madwoman

 
the stars spoke and I was awakened
to days walking in the dark
in the land of the dead
smashing my head into the wall

coded messages were beamed into my skull
forever changing my life
my tv pacifier was taken away
the blinders I wore ripped from my face

the gods proclaimed woman of tomorrow
"See"
and damn it I did
the visions began; my life was altered
I am an immortal
hidden inside mortal flesh

it's still unclear if this was a self imposed exile
or self imposed punishment
I believe I was a tyrant
raging at her creation
destroying things unevolved
still in their infancy

what kind of being created tyrannosaurus rex
while little tiny humans walk the Earth?

answer; a cruel one
this is not artwork
this is a diary of a madwoman

possibly these thoughts are god
trying to pass the buck on me
convincing me I did what he did
so many thoughts clash in my mind

who am I?
where did I come from?
I'm not like the other humans

the one I know to be god
talks to me; pushes in on me
asks me who I am and where I come from?
he says I'm not one of his own

he accuses of me of being his mother
the one who abandoned him here alone in the dark
without even a spark

there is a place in space I go; a dark place
no lights or sounds
a secure place for just me

I meditate on this place now
anything to quiet my thoughts
the answers won't come today
maybe I'll hide from them forever

the keys to the universe
are coded in the chronicles of man
in their rise and fall

I have a council in place
in case things get out of control
until then everything is in motion
it will go as it should