Farewell Mista J....

I am here today to pay tribute to the loss of a friend that once graced my life.
I just want everyone to know that he was loved and will be missed. Utter perfection.
Men like that aren't made anymore. He broke the mold so none could follow in his path.
His foot steps are his to be seen and experienced, like when I crossed them.
If you do, you will never forget his name or his heart, so unique and open.
 If I had regrets, I'd say it would have been to have have kept my mouth shut.
There are certain things in this world that never should be said until ready.
In this case even, 'what if' would've been extremely acceptable to stay a pander.
Then he'd be here, smiling and I'd still wander how his kiss tasted...
But he'd be here none the less. Smiling. Laughing...but this Silence is powerful.
Living just down the street from...I cant say it...working at the same job as...
My mind has gone crazy these last few days with corruption, its like you died.
Loosing a friend i wanted to have in my life until death, I, Im ashamed of myself.
I mourn the loss of the living. I unintentionally created these circumstances we're in.
There is no turning back and only looking forward, without you. My best friend.
I trust no one anymore. I sit back and listen and dont speak my mind.
Im just rambling at this point now. I dont even know how to end this sentence.
  Funny because I can somehow find a way to end everything else in my life.
Including your existence in mine. Farewell Mista J....