Pendulum Of Following Crumbs

Your lust, my trust,
Buried by disgust.
I must entrust
All that we've discussed.

It hurts the worst
When asked "are you hers?"
And sure, there's worse,
But only in a hearse.

So once it starts-
The feeling in my heart-
I fall apart,
And then I grow dark.

You tire me,
In your entirety,
It's times like these,
I'd flee entirely-

I would, I should,
Run away for good,
But knock on wood,
'Cause I don't think I could.

I try, no lie,
It's just that I can't fly.
I'd find the time,
But I fear being high.

Your praise, my raise,
I should feel rather brave,
But nay, sun rays
Ony bring me pain.

Accelerate
the rate I acclimate,
It's not too late
Don't let this go to waste.

I was afraid,
But that was yesterday,
Now the pain
Has all but flown away.

I'm numb, I'm dumb,
Living in a slum,
The pendulum
Of following crumbs.