pain's presence

grief, pain, depression
pain
i've been thrown the lot
pain pain pain
why me
pain what is your problem
why are you part of my life
sitting by my side
making me miserable
again
i know it's not your fault
you are just a product of trauma
i do not blame you
but i wish you would permanently leave
pain, you are understandable
although i am tired of feeling you
within my one and only mind
repetitive, tiring, boring, frustrating
you leave for a few hours, a day
but then you silently make yourself known
and i feel like crying again
standing loud and clear
you seem to want to strike me down
into a dark hole with no light
until i find the sun