I Can't....

I always pull through for people. Every single time and I don't expect anything in return but respect. When the respect is NOT given I am the one, the only one who seems to give a damn. When they are down on their luck who always lend a helping hand??? Me... It fucking hurts and I'm sick of feeling unappreciated. I'm a good friend to everyone and it upsets me knowing that i just might not have any friends at all. All whom I care for has done me foul in some kind of way and i remain there for them.. When will I have someone to fucking vent too?? When will i have someone there for me to listen and not judge?? Why am I always second choice in peoples lives, while their first choice is someone who can't even keep it real. I'm tired. Truly truly tired and I just can't do it anymore. I just can't bruhh.