Lesson Love

I'm not cut out for lesson love,
I fear I never learn enough;
And as far as my mind can see,
Without your love, I'm obsessing.

I care for you, that much is true,
I've just been waiting for a cue.
I never blinked, you never winked,
How we unsynced was so succinct..

I fall apart at the day's start,
Knowing I never touched your heart;
But as the day starts growing dark,
I see you as my series-arc.

I fear that you're my cornerstone,
And without you, I'll be alone-
But even when we were together,
Perhaps it wasn't for the better?
 
Or else, why would I feel like this?
Like you're my only form of bliss;
And now it seems the problem is,
That I can't even reminisce.