Broken promises

it's 2 am,

it's been 2 years in the making, tossing and turning over the pain, wishing you were still here,
Remembering all the good times we had, all the laughter, and the long nights.
tryin to bury the pain, but it seems to find its why back out, it doesnt hurt that your gone because i know your in a better place, but the thing that hurts the most is the unkept promises,

tossing and turning not able to sleep, i have you on my mind once again, i wasnt able to see you one last time and the pain is there, just sitting, not moving, and not going away.

saying id come see you but never did,
saying id call you but never did,
 
always telling my self that ill do it tomorrow or the next with out really thinking of the day,
always remembering that u said you'd always be their without really thinking of the possibility of the day.

so im just sitting here reminiscing of the day that once was and thinking of what if,

what if i called?
what if i came?
what if i said i love you more often?
what if i gave u a bigger hug then often?

so im just sitting here, tossing and turning at 2 am wondering what if, and why didn't i,
just wanting to say i love you, and i wish i could have givening u a bigger hug then last time anywho imma let you go now back to tossing and turning i go..

R.I.P

P.S

see u in my dreams 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘