A Cutter's Fascination

"masturbating out my lusts
in crimson I died for my passion"    

loved this... we are all fascinated with the final journey and beyond...and happily there is a beyond in your poem....

Lawrence

thank you dearest Lawrence
for showing love on this slightly morbid write
but yes death is fascinating
as it is a doorway to our next adventure..

love Brenda

Wonderful emoting/evoking ... I was a cutter ... still have the scars ... it was such a demonic rush ... just like you captured here

thank you beautiful Dragonfly
I was unsure where this came from
perhaps i'm tapping into your energy today..

or lingering past energies anyway..

I deeply appreciate the love..

you gift my pages with your presence..

love Brenda

thank you dearest John
for giving me such a in detailed
vision of what you saw while reading this..

I will be thinking of your comments as well as others today trying to get the message here..

love Crim

Poetically speaking, this is an incredible visual journey through the thoughts and emotions of last moments of life, beautiful Dark Angel. You've made the moment somehow sensual and beautiful, despite the finality of the act. I'm not sure many could do what you've done here as beautifully. The relationship between death and beauty...that's a tricky blade to walk along. And you've done it so perfectly. From a personal perspective, it gives me chills to even contemplate you in such a place. Life without you in it...no thank you, beautiful. I love you

...ever your Willow

thank you beautiful Willow
for seeing the sensual beauty here
yes just as there is in sex
there is a great release in the letting of blood
and then the finale of crossing to the next life..

it is indeed a climax..

deep breathe i'm in no hurry beautiful :)

I know there is much I need to accomplish on the journey here before i'm ready for there..

I love you..

love Brenda

Glad to hear it dear Crimsin
To take different genre's and write them so eloquently as you do take much skill
And you indeed skillful in the art of writing

thank you beautiful Rose
while the knife has called to me
I haven't picked it up..

because I know of it's dark artistry..

I would follow it into eternity
were I to pick it up..

love Crimsin

A great piece. It reminds me of a poem from a fabulous poet and friend on here Arthur Vaso
https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/282417-bleed-for-me/

thank you graciously dearest Tim
for visiting me and for sharing
one of the deepest poems of true understanding
that i've read..

love Brenda

Wow!  This is a look into something that happens all the time that many brush off as nothing. Your words are haunting. Absolutely beautiful.
It’s funny because I write a lot
So much more than ends up here partly because I am VERY hard on myself and partly because ideas arrive and I literally forget.
A few months ago I wrote about this sort of thing but I don’t know if I forgot or was scared to post it. I also am not suicidal but it could easily come across as different.
But I absolutely loved this.
GREAT JOB!!

thank you Ken this is a voice that lurks inside me daring me to do such things but I refuse to..

instead I bring it to light here at the underground and for a moment it purges me of these demons..

when you feel the time is right you will do the same with such ideas..

love Crim

Blood is the ink we use to tell our stories
until too much is said and that ink
can't sustain the author
any longer. Please
write slowly

Sandman

thank you dearest Sandman we do indeed ink in blood and soul.. I will be careful..

love Crim

Fascination with death is a need to know basis ;

Yet cutting is a release some have used to release pain

and emotional trauma , which can overtake one if they

become disconnected from their inner light ;

Death then seems like a portal out , a way of levitating

out of the physical world , half in half out , living in a dark  

dream , which is more inviting than where they live "here" ;

The whole generation influenced heavily by Trent Razor ,  

Marilyn Manson , and others of the late 80's - 90's , the

cult of pain , punk , and emo , the fashion of zombification ,  

was as well an entering into the domain of the dark goddess

and her realm , where you must face yourself in her dark  

mirror and see your light , within that darkness ;

This used to be a ritualized process in older , tribal cultures ,  

and as we in "modern times" have become divorced , and  

purposefully removed from these ancient practices , by  

culture and religion , the mental imbalance created by those

actions has created a longing for some new rituals to take  

their place ; I was buried under the ground overnight , with  

a straw to breathe through...the fear of death overtakes the

desire of death , and one's subconscious awakens , including

psychic powers , part of our ancient survival programs...

The art of cutting , is a weaker version of some of these ancient  

methods ; it has been said blood sacrifice is the same as emotions ;

I believe K.Flay says this very well in music , as you did here , Crim ;

Very well done , powerful , purging...

Remember :

The Pen Is Mightier Than The Sword...or razor...

Face yourself and the Dark Goddess , through  

another form of ritual , or the cycle can continue...

To deny it makes it stronger : To find another way , changes the program !

Love to You !

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2WcOdz96ko

thank you dearest Wolf I'm in awe at the depths of your heart and knowledge..

love Crim

Just another in the big picture who has paid

enough dues to see the some things others

have not , and the same vice versa...

Many are those who have been my teachers !

Piercing , Self Mutilation , and Body Modification ,

are some of the remnants we are left with today ,

that when done in a *very carefully* supervised

arena and atmosphere , can serve to allow one to

enter trance states , which is another reason for cutting ;

Cutting itself may have it's functions , yet like any drug ,

or mind / body / spirit alteration , if one has a tendency

toward losing control , it is best to be "avoided"...

Best to you , Crim !

dearest poet read my comments and the replies here it's not bliss...

thank you beautiful Rose
while the knife has called to me
I haven't picked it up..

because I know of it's dark artistry..

I would follow it into eternity
were I to pick it up..

love Crimsin