Misunderstood©

No one will ever quite comprehend the fact that I love with the kind of love that says...  
Fuck that!  
Fuck them!  
And fuck what you say!  
Because I still love you anyway  
Despite your inability to see past your insecurity to get to your self-worth  
Impartial to what you think you might know or what you choose to speculate  
I love you  
and you have no control over that  
and that scares you and you hate that  
The fact that I won't allow you to use love as an excuse to be a pussy  
The fact that I see right through all your bullshit  
And now you have nothing left to hide behind  
The fact that for that same reason I'll kill a bitch over you and that kind of power  
Makes you doubt your ability to succeed  
Because who would do that for little ole you right  
Woe is me huh?  
Naw nigga that's a cop out  
To everybody else it's crazy  
To be able to forgive  
To not pass judgement  
To not hold any resentments  
It's even considered as being "weak"  
When has fighting for what you believe in ever been a liability?  
Because that's where the real work commences  
Who are you to try to convince me to abandon my moral values?  
Just because for once you bear witness to true loyalty  
and you're afraid because you've never actually seen it done before  
Well you've never met me!  
You say it's wrong  
And although that just may be your experience which you're entitled to because after all it's your testimony  
But guess what?  
It's right for me it makes perfect sense to me  
All that other stuff just equates to a personal problem  
that I care not to be associated with.  
That's accomplishment  
Acknowledge my achievement  
Fear doesn't prosper here! Ever!  
Allow me the privilege of doing what makes me happy.  
Please and thank you  
Aren't our people slaves enough to this society!  
Don't take away my ability to make myself feel good  
Because that's my incentive  
Just because it's different  
It's not your cup of tea  
It's bad?  
By whose standards and why?  
I get to love you  
Precisely because I can  
Precisely because I do, and I will  
and it does something to me  
that makes me want to stay around and do all that I can to get more and keep it forever and project onto other people  
if allowed  
and that's a huge risk yes!  
Some frequent to say stupid but I'm willing to do the unthinkable for that  
I want to create my own fairytale  
It's worth it to me nothing after that matters really.  
Yup it's just that simple.  
And you have the audacity to shame me?!  
How dare you water down my love?!  
The same love of my God  
Don't discredit me or dismiss my hard labor  
Just because you don't know what a foundation is supposed to look like.  
I'm not supposed to come perfect and shiny brand new in a bright red bow  
Because you know life and you know this world and what it's done to people like us, I'm damaged, beat down, tattered, worn down, old used up bitter cold desperate defensive screaming for help because it's only so long that you can ignore this war cry  
But I can manage to pull myself together enough to give you what you need to survive while I die undernourished neglected forgotten about overlooked used up underappreciated  
People don't get me their disingenuous ways cloud their judgement and I'm the fool because I make it a personal choice to put myself last in hopes that you'll use what little bit I gave you to save a life  
And maybe that's not for you to get  
Even if I am the only one that knows black love aint at the back of my cervix  
I don’t know why you keep tryna find it there with your dick leading the way.  
I'm content with what I know and who I am.  
Who doesn't like a lost cause?
Lean not on your own understanding.