Where is Me?

I'm alone the way I've never been
Heartbroken, until the end.
Seemingly unseen in this listless silence
The waves wash over, and drown me out.

"Don't worry, I'll be fine."
I say the words you want to hear.
"No, nothing's wrong..."
I'm just wallowing in my world of misery.

And you can't even see that side of me
Because you can't even allow me to be me.
And I wonder why you look away
Why I disappoint you so very much

Maybe it's the things I never said
That threaten to creep out,
And when we fight, I always lose,
I can't allow myself to win.

You say that I'm demonic,
Your own daughter and blood
That I've caused you so much pain,
To you, the one I loved.

I never stopped caring,
I just wanted your approval
And when you never gave it,
I slowly slipped away.

I can't take the silence,
I can't take the glares,
I can't stand the way you've lied
And you can't see the way I've disappeared.

There isn't a me, your little girl
There's only a child who you've broken
There's only the twisted silence of one unloved
The tortured shattering, of a soul stripped bare