I May Be Crazy , But I'm Not Lazy

I May Be Crazy , But I'm Not Lazy In My Madness ,

In My Times Of Rare Sadness , I Meet It Head On ,

I'm Not Mistaken , I'm Not Fakin' , I'm Just Not A Pawn

In Anyone's Chess Game Including My Own , I Will

Overturn The Board , I Will Not Give Up , I Will Still

Have My Catharsis , Have My Breakdown , Some

Call It A Shakedown , Mental Re - Arrangement , Run

That Program Of Derangement , And I Am An Artist ,

Sweet Death And The Muse Kissed , Risen , Forgiven

By Myself , All That Matters , Whether Me Former Or Me Latter ,

Roll Of The Dice , Will That Suffice , Be It Odds Or Even Even ?



Will You Love Me As I Am , Or Just Who You Expect Me To Be ,

Do You Demand I Remand What You Want When You Feel Need ,

O Gods Just Set Me Free , From Some Other's Life's Destiny ,

I Got My Own , And That's Enough , Sometimes Easy And Then Rough ,

But I Can't Deal With Other's Expectations In My Daily Loving Relations ,

This Is My Journey I Claim My Space , It Does Not Mean You Are Erased ,

Just Put On A Back Burner While What I Need To Face Is Really Faced ,

And I Ask That You See This Is My Need , I Bleed Inside , Just Like  You ,

Something Died Inside So Long Ago , Some Things I Never Really Wanted ,

And Yet These Demons Must Someday , So I Say , Just Be Confronted ,

Sometime , And Somewhere , And That Is A Now And That Is A Here ,

And I Got The Courage And The Strength And The Rage While Others Fear ,

And I Am Not Afraid , I'm Never Played , So Let's Just Rock And Let's Just Roll ,

If This Is To Be , Finally , My Last Stand , Let It Be , My Destiny ,To Save Me And My Soul !