A reality never realized

Dreams are realities, never realized,
Tomorrow is a promise, that's easily compromised.
Drowning in a darkness, that's to deep to survive,
Holding onto memories, that are eating me alive.

I take a cup full of sorrow, and a needle full of sin,
They help me delay the anger, that's boiling under my skin.
I trip over my shadow ever night, as my soul tries to escape,
I can't deal with the anguish so I sin away my life.

One more line won't hurt, one more vein spiked,
It seems like tomorrow will never get here,
I pray but it seems to do no good,
I wait for prayers to be answered but they fall on deaf ears.

My today is just a yesterday, that I'm living over again,
I've begged for forgiveness,
but there's no redemption for the eternally damned.
Just emptiness that drowns me again.

Lost in the revelations of my sin.
Swallowing the sorrow never quenches my urge.
Stuck between life and death,
Forever bound to this earth.