If I Continue Loving You

If I continue loving you know I'm never totally satisfied despite no matter how hard I try to be the perfect woman I will always have my flaws that block us,
Whether in love or in lust I approach both with the upmost passion and can never slow down for anything no matter how many times you tell me to.
If I continue loving you know that I may never change who I am even if you asked me to;
Don't ever try to tell me what to do or tie me down 'cause I'll never stay,
You can't control me, you can't make me anything but your woman, and you can't try to make me into something I'm not.
Know that I'm my own woman, grown enough to make her own decisions, and will always be too hard headed and independent to wait around for a man in shinning armor on a noble steed to come and rescue her.
If I continue loving you try to understand me as best as you can even if you can't.
I know it's not easy being with me,
I know it's hard loving me,
I know you have to take your time with me and try to get to know me as much as you can no matter how hard I try to shield you away from who I really am, you still get to see me as a real person nothing more, nothing less.
I'll give you all of me and show you all of me while at the same time expecting the same in return.
You need to earn my trust, I can't just give it to you upfront and hand it to you like it's free candy.
I need to feel safe around you in order to tell you everything or I won't feel like you're being sincere with my heart.
If I continue loving you just know the sad truth may be that I will always be haunted by my past lovers.
Their faces haunt me, their memories haunt me, their mistakes haunt me, and most of all the pain they caused me haunts me.
I know this fear is so frustrating and is so hard to overcome, but just know I love you and don't ever mean to hurt you.
I just don't want to get hurt as well, 'cause the hell I've been through and the blood I've tasted isn't worth doing over again;
I know you're a real man, I know that for sure, but I can't lose myself once again when it's happened over too many times to count.
Those men don't ever compare to you, it's a fact.
But I don't want you to end up like them and just be another chapter I finished in my book of life, I want to be your wife and have your kids one day.
I want you to say one day " I do".
If I continue loving you let me know it's going to be me and you,
Let me know we'll be in it through thick and thin,
No matter how cold or warm just promise me I'm not alone on this.
Promise me you'll always be here for me and I will do the same for you too.